Bluetifa’s Laburnum

Juz took my block test earlier this year, it was reali depressing. There is vertually no chance for me to pass any paper. In addition to the fatal blow, my cca was combined with other science cca. The current club is named ‘The Science Club’. However it was rather comforting that other cca was oso involved in this mess. muahahaha! (kinda sadistic huh?) It kinda worried me a little knowing that the intake for Jc this year was rather low as this would greatly affect the cca recruitment as well.

Speaking of which i was kinda worried that my original cca (Bio Science Club) may not be able to mix well with the new club. Well that will be something i need to discuss with the other members yah? i was oso kinda sad that my days in the jc and the club will be ending very soon. about 20 weeks. Indeed my job in the cca was kinda tiring but to me it was reali worth it and fun. i was reali sad that two of the club members had lost their heart in the cca.

I worked reali hard to boost the cca moral, change their negative concept on the club and open up their hearts so they can feel free to be themselves and have fun. After this much time and work i’m oni half way there. Oni half. If i were given a little more time, juz a few more months. another term would be fine. The truth was i was really scared, reali scared that if i’m not elected for the new president, the new one may not be able to help me complete my dream. i was reli afraid. But after many thoughts, i knew that nomatter the outcome, i’ll stl have to support and believe in myself to continue fulfilling my dream, even if i’m not the president. It is kinda ironic to know that i didn’t have that much a confidence in myself and in my club members to believe that i will do better.

Maybe after this much time workin on encouraging people, i’ve totally forgotten in helping myself. Slowly and frequently i’ve lost believe in myself. i don’t really understand this feeling. Maybe i’m thinking too much ya? haha….guess i’ll still have to move on.